The Last Few Weeks

So Kevin has been training for the past 3 weeks and he comes home in a couple days! I am so excited to get back to "normal" around here! I have made a great new friend that I really enjoying spending time with, and it has really helped ease the hardships of Kevin being away this time. Our kids play really well together, and she & I never seem to run out of things to talk about! We ventured out to our FRG (family readiness group) meeting this week hoping to get to know more of the ladies in our FRG. It was a great experience even though there were only about 10 of us there, it was nice to see so many of us felt the same way while our men are gone. It really helps to know it's not only your child that acts up while their father is gone, or that it's not just in your life that the proverbial shit hits the fan the second they walk out the door! We talked about great ideas for our FRG as well like game nights, play dates and classes to help us learn how to do things like fix basic car & household problems. I am excited to get to spend more time with many of the ladies, they seem really nice.

The only thing great friends cannot ease is the loneliness of going to bed alone. It's hard to look to the right side of the bed and not see Kevin laying there. It's hard not to have someone to cuddle and kiss at night.

In some ways though, as bad as it sounds, it is easier to not have an extra person in the house. Less food to buy & prepare, less dishes, less laundry, and less mess! Though, I would gladly trade all of that to have Kevin home again.

All in all, it has been an alright few weeks without Kevin. I have had A LOT of help from my friends, and family, they've all pulled me out of some tight spots and I really appreciate all of them helping me out! Means a lot to know I'm not alone in all of this.

Crazy Expectant Mom

I wish more people understood that I am not insane, and I really do know what causes pregnancy, lol. I DID plan to be pregnant and probably give birth to my second child while my husband is an active duty, deployed Infantryman.

The reasoning behind my decision? For starters, I was ready to have my 2nd (and probably last) child because my first will be 2 at the end of this month and I don't want my kids 5 years apart! Then I also would like Kevin to be the father of my children, so I had to think if something happened to him- he ends up in a wheel chair, is hurt badly or God forbid, ends up being KIA I had better have #2 before he leaves. Lastly, I know that I am capable of handling 2 children by myself. I have 7 neices and nephews and have watched several of them for long periods of time with no issues. I know that 2 kids alone is something I am more than equipped to handle.

So, no I am not insane. It wasn't an accident. I am excited,nervous, scared, ready and not ready all at once. That is all! :)

Turning Over A New Leaf

Kevin left for training early this morning, and all day I have been wallowing in my depression and boredom. As I finished crying for the millionth time today, I decided that I am not going to do this the whole time he is gone. I am going to keep up with my drawings & paintings, scrapbook, and maybe get back to blogging (obviously). I love Kevin and he and Mason are my life, BUT, I need to make Kevin less of my "LIFE". I need hobbies and things to do when he's gone. When he's home I focus all my energy into him and Mason and that's great- that's what I enjoy doing. Except that leaves me with a large void of "well, Kev's gone and Mason's asleep so what do I do with my time other than veg in front of the television?"

I think having hobbies is going to be a vital part of surviving the upcoming deployment. I need to have distractions and things I enjoy doing to keep me from focusing on the time he is gone. I picked up painting/drawing a few months ago, and I have really enjoyed that! I love how it feels to create something that I think up, even if it's mediocre at best :)! As I type this blog, I remember how good it feels to put my feelings down "on paper" so to speak.

So here goes, trying to put it all down and make sense of it, maybe help some fellow army wives along the way!

I really do believe what they tell me in FRG meetings WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!